sigh to another school week...

i don't know if ill ever make this right, cause i am just so broken by the bitterness of loneliness, and im so scared, even though the world she loves, it wont ever be the way it was, and his heart of stone left hers breaking, every night she crys, and dies a little more each time, say you love me, nothing left inside, say you love me, and the silence will set her free.-Mayday Parade

ahhh, i love Mayday Parade. One of my top five bands. it goes:
All Time Low
The Ready Set
Mayday Parade
A Skylit Drive
Paramore

there amazing! thats just some of my favorites.

all these bands just make me smile and make me feel better about everything and give me hope. music is a huge part of my life, i want to go to college to do something in music, whether it be me doing something solo and making it big, or me working for someone in music, it has to be circled around music. my favorite thing to do in the world besides sing and play guitar is go to to shows, it is just amazing! i like lower key shows bc its not as many people and you can actually meet the bands and have fun! i like warped tour alot but there are sooo many freaking people! its crazy!


im sad, school starts again tomorrow, i like going and seeing my friends but it is so stressful!

well i have to go finish drawing something for art so ill talk later.

lovee youu
-lauralovee

cash rules everything around me, singing dolla dolla bill, yall(:

I freaking love the Ready Set!
Jordan<3

i seriously think this is one of my new favorite bands ever!
he is so entergetic on stage, has an amazing voice, is so sweet in person, and does everything himself!
i listen to his music and it makes me want to jump up and down!

so yah enough about him,
my week of no seminar has been okay, except today because all of my friends had seminar :(
tuesday was fun, everyone was free and didnt have class.
and me, maddie and our friend skylar went to student musicians club, skylar has a sick guitar! imma steal it! shh, dont say anything[:

tomorrow i dont have to be at school till 830 thanks to having no seminar!

im so tired and kind of frustrated because i want a boyfriend, and so far i havent been able to find one...

and im rambling, im always doing that it seems.

well yah,
ill talk to you laterr on.

lovee youu
-lauralovee

yay for no seminars!

since i have above an 85 in all my classes i no longer have to attend seminars at school! thank god!

on terrible notes, my dad has hurt his shoulder...yet again.
about 2 years ago, he had to have surgery on it bc apperently his rotators disk or whatever was dislocated, and he had to have pins in it.
well friday while at work, he was in the walk in and trying to put some box up on the selve and it fell and he tried to catch in and while doing so he tore some tendons and ligiments in his shoulder, now he is at home until its better, so mom is working for him till he is better. it sucks.

im very stressed out in life, everything turns around to something worse nowadays.
i like 2 guys and still love that one guy of 2 years..
the guys i like are very sweet and go to school with me, the downside is, they use to like maddie, but she never went out with them bc she didnt really feel the same. but i think deep down they still like her, and lets face it, im no maddie. both guys play the guitar and are gorgeous(: there not into me though, im almost positive..

so yah, maybe i will get lucky and they will have feelings for me too..

well im going to slumberland.

lovee youu
-lauralovee

take off your makeup, and put down the camera.

ugh, i miss the snow :(
snow is like so amazing. i wish it would come back.

i have a headache, i hope im not getting sick again..
im just rambling things that are on my mind...

i had fun at my friend halleys house this weekend!
shes very lovely haha, she taught me how to play "the girls a straight up hustler". by all time low on guitar!<3

so now school starts again tomorrow, at least its a short week., and i think student musicians club is tomorrow! i love bringing my guitar to school. but its kinda frustrating cause im not that good at it, when someone like halley has been playing for 7 years and is AMAZINGG!

well yah, im going to sleeep.

lovee youu
-lauralovee

exhale, another wasted breath.

so the concert yesturday was fun!
tfof was amazing, there awesome guys and im glad to be friends with them all!
my other favorite band was the ready set! jordan was amazing! he is so engeretic and is an AWESOME musician, i suggest going and seeing him perform!

[not to mention he is ADORABLE(:]

I dont know what has been wrong with me lately, i feel dead and just not worth it anymore..like i have bad depression it seems, i dont ever want to eat anymore, or do anything..

i think im so stressed out that its truly effecting me, no matter what i do everything always goes south.. im constantly trying to get my breathing in order but its hard. i want to have someone to love me, but the truth is, who i truly love, doesnt love me back, ive loved him for almost 2 years, 2 fucking years! and he doesnt love me at all..only as a friend, he claims to truly care about me, but not love me. and thats what i need right now in life..

well i have homework..so i guess im gonna just go do it..

lovee youu
-lauralovee

apple store

im in the apple store in greensboro! wooh! the only site it wont let you use it myspace for some reason...

anywho, going to the show in a bit,
peace

we got a hard day coming if we cant work out,

all the pissy little problems that were fighting about, hey!

i love nevershoutnever!

anyways, hey there! im sorry i barly write anymore, but no one really reads these things but me anyways.

so its been an okay time in life, im just frustrated with guys of course..
i like this guy at my school, hes such a sweetie, and he is oh so cute(: he can play the guitar and bass and thats something that i go for in guys! but what sucks is he likes this really beautiful girl...i cant compete with her. it seems whenever i get close with a guy something bad happens. either they have a girlfriend, they dont like me, or they do something that makes me not like them anymore..

sighhh..in good news, im going to a concert tomorrow!
some of my friends, the fear of falling, there opening for anarbor, the friday night boys, the bigger lights and the ready set in greensboro, my friend kristi ray, madelynn, jimmy and kristi's friend is going with us, its going to be alot of fun!

so yah, im excited.

i wish more people read these things..

anyways ill talk to you later..

lovee youu
-lauralovee

guys are just lovely.

"and honestly, i have been begging for answers, that you and only you can give to me. my voice crying loud, been crying for days now, and as i start to run, i stop to breathe, and i was nearly scared to death, for what you left in paragraphs."
-Mayday Parade

I LOVEEE Mayday Parade so much! There amazing to listen to when your really sad and upset at the world, or just at some stupid guy or girl.

i love this guy so much, more than all my being, and he loved me at a point in time, but because im stupid as hell, when asked at the time, i said no, because i was terrifed of him knowing, i didnt wanna lose him, (he doesn't live in the same state as me). so now im crazy in love with him, and he barly ever talks to me. like he has days where if he does text me, its one worded answers, then days where he is really cute and its like i fall in love all over again. i truly love him, i didnt know a person could love like this, hes just my vision of perfect, very thing he does is super duper cute, (hah nevershoutnever(:], ive been trying to get over him for going on two years now. i try liking other guys, but it never works, its like im suppose to be with him, but im tired of being alone..this is all just frustrating.


so yah, i hate my stupid emotional problems.

im going to go listen to music..

ill talk to you later.

lovee youu
-lauralovee